Now I know that it seems whenever I post on this thing I’m having a bitch. And they may be partly true, but thats usually when I’m in the blogging mood.

I get worried that the wrong person will read it and really screw you. This is my personal blog, and if you choose to search it out and you don’t like what you read than I don’t care?

kk so this is what is new.

I changed my mind. AGAIN. I KNOW. Its freaking shitting me. Although… if I’m honest with myself and this blog – then I wasn’t 100% on forensic science. It scared me that it could mess my head up and that I had to move out of home. Same with policing – 12 hour shifts and more crazy people and the part that I wanted to get to would take me like 5 years + to get to if I even made it, plus to not have anything behind me if it didnt work. Again it was the same with medicine – only to a degree though because I’m not real keen on surgery itself. I don’t want to spend the next 10 years at home trying to set myself up. In the back of  my head, nursing has been there. I told myself that if those other career choices didn’t quite work out then I could change careers. I guess I was setting myself up to fail. I hate that my mother told me I could do anything…. because I can’t. I have my limits and I can’t really have more than one substantial career at one time. So no mum, I can’t do anything.

I was surfing one of my regular forums and then something clicked. Paediatric nursing. I LOVE kids, and there is this connection I have with them, and childcare/teaching doesn’t interest me in the slightly. But I also like helping people, and (human) biology really interests me hence the medicine idea.

So I’ve looked into it. UWS (yeah yeah I know). 3 years. AND I can *fingers crossed* go straight into paed’s if I can get a placement.

Then there is the issue of a GAP year. To take one or not… that is the question.

At this stage, I’m thinking not because if I live at home (yeah I REALLLY know) then hopefully I can save up, travel in the christmas holidays and eventually move out after my degree.

I’m aiming for 5km. My best so far is in 3.7something in 30 minutes with 10 minut warm up/cool down. I’m up to 1.2 on the Couch to 5km iphone app. The gym is addictive, but I like it. I want to look better. Feel better. Fit into clothes and LIKE clothes shopping because it doesn’t depress me.

Hmmm thats it for now. I have quite a few friend issues but they are a post in themselves and I have Zumba soon!

is LOVE Just finished Season TWO but I have to wait till my birthday for the rest of the disks. Gr. But I have assessments so I reaaaaaally shouldn’t be up to all hours of the morning watching it.

Crappy Stuff?

Well, number ONE, my car is being taken back to the car yarde brought i off for the following reasons;

• Power steering failed
• The immobolisers doesnt work which could mean a new computer
• The Radiator is broken – not enirely sure
• The fan for the air con is just kind of floating under the bonnet
• There is a crack in the sub rail of the car which basically holds the engine in

Yes. I paid $7500 plus $400 for new tyres plus $200 for transfer, but it is under warranted so I should get my money back. BUT there is less than a month till my birthday soooo yeah

Number Two, my boss is making my job harder than it should be, and ultimately if it doesnt improve for good then I will be leaving end of November and hopefully I can get a job at a horse riding facility I understand her job is difficult, obviously more than mine, but really how immature can one person be? If she can’t handle the stress of being our top boss then what is she doing in the job? She has improved our store immensely but I don’t appreciate the way that I’m treated and spoken to.

Number Three, I have done NO school work what so ever this holidays so I am literally SCREWED.

Good things?

*crickets*

Oh wait. I will hopefully have my P’s in a month. Without a car. Hmm. My birthday is in less than a month, that is a good thing but yeah. I’m not really excited though because I’m not really getting anything exciting.

You are wasting my time. I dont care anymore nor am I going to help you out anymore. I am counting down the days till I get spend extended amount of time away from you.

Positive: I think I may have a crush… that is again kinda unattainable but who knows

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…. is killing my life.

I have an ancient history speech on Tuesday on Sparta and the agoge (education system). 5 to 7 minutes.

ON THE SAME DAY… I have a 10-15minute viva (or interview slash speech) on my Ext 2 English major work.

And then I have a legal essay on a comtemporary human rights issue next week and my core performance dance on the last day of school.

All of this while working anywhere from 16 to 18 hours a week, and dancing 3 nights a week plus rehearsals.

FML.

Stilling waiting to hear about my job interview too. Losing hope a little too quickly.

Boy is talking to me

So my blogging is sporadic. LOL.

Currently I’m looking for a new job. McDonald’s sucks. Seriously just because its McDonald’s DOES NOT mean that you have the right to treat me and my fellow crew people like CRAP. No its not okay and please don’t expect me to be all smiley and friendly when your giving me attitude and swearing at me. No you are not going to get free food unless its a circumstance that warrants it and despite what you think I KNOW how to go my own job. Like seriously. I have a life. McDonald’s is a job but I will not put up with your crap, I don’t get paid enough to deal with you. Oh and you think that complaining to my manager is going to do anything? Nope. You’d be wrong because my manager knows me as a person and as a worker.

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