Now I know that it seems whenever I post on this thing I’m having a bitch. And they may be partly true, but thats usually when I’m in the blogging mood.

I get worried that the wrong person will read it and really screw you. This is my personal blog, and if you choose to search it out and you don’t like what you read than I don’t care?

kk so this is what is new.

I changed my mind. AGAIN. I KNOW. Its freaking shitting me. Although… if I’m honest with myself and this blog – then I wasn’t 100% on forensic science. It scared me that it could mess my head up and that I had to move out of home. Same with policing – 12 hour shifts and more crazy people and the part that I wanted to get to would take me like 5 years + to get to if I even made it, plus to not have anything behind me if it didnt work. Again it was the same with medicine – only to a degree though because I’m not real keen on surgery itself. I don’t want to spend the next 10 years at home trying to set myself up. In the back of  my head, nursing has been there. I told myself that if those other career choices didn’t quite work out then I could change careers. I guess I was setting myself up to fail. I hate that my mother told me I could do anything…. because I can’t. I have my limits and I can’t really have more than one substantial career at one time. So no mum, I can’t do anything.

I was surfing one of my regular forums and then something clicked. Paediatric nursing. I LOVE kids, and there is this connection I have with them, and childcare/teaching doesn’t interest me in the slightly. But I also like helping people, and (human) biology really interests me hence the medicine idea.

So I’ve looked into it. UWS (yeah yeah I know). 3 years. AND I can *fingers crossed* go straight into paed’s if I can get a placement.

Then there is the issue of a GAP year. To take one or not… that is the question.

At this stage, I’m thinking not because if I live at home (yeah I REALLLY know) then hopefully I can save up, travel in the christmas holidays and eventually move out after my degree.

I’m aiming for 5km. My best so far is in 3.7something in 30 minutes with 10 minut warm up/cool down. I’m up to 1.2 on the Couch to 5km iphone app. The gym is addictive, but I like it. I want to look better. Feel better. Fit into clothes and LIKE clothes shopping because it doesn’t depress me.

Hmmm thats it for now. I have quite a few friend issues but they are a post in themselves and I have Zumba soon!