at my favourite horse riding place in the area Fingers crossed that it work out . I’m pretty pumped. The money probably wont be as good as McDonalds, but hopefully I can compliment the two together to give me a nice system.

I also got my P’s and my bug is aaaaaallll fixed <3. Luckily we didn’t have to pay for any of the problems and the used car dealer we brought it off were brilliant and I would recommend them to anyone. So I now have freedom and transportation and my parents are taking it well. For now

I like a boy. hehe. But its a secret. Well not entirely. He knows the truth, and I’m not sure how he feels. Oh well. His hugs pretty much complete my life.

I’ve been missing dance pretty bad. Esp after dropping it at school. My old dance teacher is running her own casual classes at a local studio space. I wanted to go last night but funds didn’t really work out for me.

HSC is over on the 1st of November at 12.25pm. I still have no motivation. My major work is coming along nicely I’m just trying to get the ending the way that I want it and then it will be completely done. Except for editing and tweaking.

So this update has been long coming and a bit of a mix match of things.

Everyone cross everything that this job will work out for me on the weekend

is LOVE Just finished Season TWO but I have to wait till my birthday for the rest of the disks. Gr. But I have assessments so I reaaaaaally shouldn’t be up to all hours of the morning watching it.

Crappy Stuff?

Well, number ONE, my car is being taken back to the car yarde brought i off for the following reasons;

• Power steering failed
• The immobolisers doesnt work which could mean a new computer
• The Radiator is broken – not enirely sure
• The fan for the air con is just kind of floating under the bonnet
• There is a crack in the sub rail of the car which basically holds the engine in

Yes. I paid $7500 plus $400 for new tyres plus $200 for transfer, but it is under warranted so I should get my money back. BUT there is less than a month till my birthday soooo yeah

Number Two, my boss is making my job harder than it should be, and ultimately if it doesnt improve for good then I will be leaving end of November and hopefully I can get a job at a horse riding facility I understand her job is difficult, obviously more than mine, but really how immature can one person be? If she can’t handle the stress of being our top boss then what is she doing in the job? She has improved our store immensely but I don’t appreciate the way that I’m treated and spoken to.

Number Three, I have done NO school work what so ever this holidays so I am literally SCREWED.

Good things?

*crickets*

Oh wait. I will hopefully have my P’s in a month. Without a car. Hmm. My birthday is in less than a month, that is a good thing but yeah. I’m not really excited though because I’m not really getting anything exciting.

I just don’t want/can’t do it anymore.

I don’t have the time, or the motivation, or the resources and I’m always on the wrong side of the world.

I adore the fansites I have and the celebrities/the shows that they are based upon but it is such an effort.

I’m falling behind on my school work, and if I want to follow my dreams in the next 2 years I’m going to need some $$$ which is possible but that simply means more hours at McDonalds.

Why does it have to be so hard?

Or maybe some criminology?

Hmmm I’ve been looking at going to Uni. Yes I can hear it now.. “Buuut you said you didn’t want to go to Uni!”. And well yes that would be true…. if I didn’t need to go got Uni.

Double Bach in Social Science in Justice Studies and Forensic Science. 4 years of my life in Canberra… or maybe 3 in Canberra 1 in Canada. ATAR of LESS than 70. If I can make the cut I think it is going to work.

I get to move out, recieve to Uni degrees, Crime/Justice and Law and possibly still work in the Police Force.

Going into Week 4 at school.

Cars Cars Cars. Well I have c. 110 hours. 3 months to go so I’ll be fine.

Honda Jazz is on my radar at the moment. White little baby. 2004 model only $9000. And Yes that is a fair bit of money. Rents seems to be pretty good about it.. and right now I can afford Rego, Insurance (under their names.. under my names its like $4000 A YEAR) and Greenslip. I’d be willing to pay them off aswell… so we shall see how it goes.

Work makes me want to curl into a little ball and die. Yeah go suck on that Rob.

I have like zero motivation to finish school. and it is isn’t even like I want to stay at school or anything… it is just I’d rather jump forward 12months from now.

I guess I shall have to get started on my Ext 2 draft, might start writing that tonight. and get onto the rest of that English homework.. and ancient homework…. and compose my dance… and yeah.

I have a new site in the works, Megan Fox. Nuff said

Found a really promising place to ride/lease/agist. Endeavour Park Equestrian Center. Google it. But it is alot cheaper than Scenic Hills, with 10times the facilites. Although it is a 40minute drive. Hmm guess I’ll have to see how it goes.

So there is currently one day left of school and boy it couldnt come any sooner.

Those assessments I was venting about before?

Ancient History: 24/25

Legal Stuies (that I finished at 3.45am the day it was due) 10/10

Ext 2 English Viva: 8/10

The only one I have left now is dance which is tomorrow but it means I have to face the dirty dirty ganga in my dance class that is a hyprocritcal biatch that cant dance to save her life. But who am I to say she cant do the subejct for her HSC. My knee is playing up a bit but hopefully I can still dance tomorrow.

Yesterday was my dance concert, Inspirtation. It was a great day with a tonne of extremely talented performers that did the Academy proud. I can’t wait to get back into classes in 2010. Heart my APA girls <3

…. is killing my life.

I have an ancient history speech on Tuesday on Sparta and the agoge (education system). 5 to 7 minutes.

ON THE SAME DAY… I have a 10-15minute viva (or interview slash speech) on my Ext 2 English major work.

And then I have a legal essay on a comtemporary human rights issue next week and my core performance dance on the last day of school.

All of this while working anywhere from 16 to 18 hours a week, and dancing 3 nights a week plus rehearsals.

FML.

Stilling waiting to hear about my job interview too. Losing hope a little too quickly.

Boy is talking to me